Disgusted

I am absolutely disgusted with myself right now. Last night was strength night, and I kicked my own ass through it.

However, the part that disgusted me. I used to body build. Would go and just build mass, definition, strength. I wanted to not just look like I could tear your arms off, I wanted that power.

When I stopped I was squatting 600 lbs. I was benching 380. I was, I was I was... I was laid low tonight. The most I could chest press? 60 lbs. Squat? 80 lbs. Oh how the mighty have fallen. I am disgusted with myself.

Like I told the punk lid giving me shit tonight, I'm here for a huge reason. I refuse to die like this. I will live.