My name is Thom Lancaster, and I’ve been trying to kill myself with food over the course of my life. I had a wake up call at my most recent series of Drs Appointments, and found out some hard truths.
1. I weigh 595 pounds.
2. I’m a barely managed diabetic
3. My cholesterol is through the roof.
4. Unless dramatic changes are made now, I will not make it to 40.
The fact I have not died or at least had a heart attack is nothing short of miraculous.
I have tried time and time again to lose the weight, to make better choices. I have failed time and time again. I have failed for the following reasons.
1. Depression. I’ve always been depressed, I don’t know exactly what not being depressed is like. I know since moving back I feel much happier and am much more active.
2. I’m addicted to soda.
3. I put my work ahead of everything else. Including and especially my health.
4. I don’t hold myself accountable.
This post is my attempt at being open and accountable. I know this will be a long difficult road. But I have everything to lose of I fail.
I’m not looking for inspirational messages. I’m not looking for “you got this!” Etc. I’m not looking for anything. I’m just being open about the poor choices I have made, and how those habits live on in my nephews.